Trusting in God's Plan

Wow these last few days have been absolutely crazy and fun!  Random outings and chats with wonderful, supportive and amazing friends have helped me gain a much better understanding of how to navigate this time of my life.  I got to watch my amazing little bro play baseball and I'm so proud of him every day.  I finally got started in organizing my chaotic mess of a room and figuring out what gets boxed up for college, what gets packed for the mission, and what gets thrown out.  I purchased my passport which I'm now waiting on for the next three weeks.  I started taking some antibiotics for one of my tests I received at the doctors office.  And, last night I went country dancing.  The venue was massive, I met tons of wonderful new people and finished off the night with mango smoothies at Denny's.  I was in bed at 4 am and it was so amazing!

I'm learning more and more now that the Gospel blesses my daily life because the Lord has a plan for us.  Earlier this week, I was extremely frustrated that I wasn't getting on my mission as fast as I'd like to.  I had tons of worries, concerns, frustrations and things weighing on my mind.  I just wanted all the road blocks to get out of the way and to enter the MTC (Missionary Training Center) as soon as possible.  But after realizing I would have to wait another three weeks for my passport and starting medication, I've learned that these delays are here for a reason.  The Lord knows better than I do, when I'll be ready to serve a mission and when I need to leave.  It is hard sometimes to trust in a plan that I do not know.  But what I do know, and am repeatedly learning, is that when we put our trust in God's plan and his timing, we will receive an infinite amount of blessings.

During this waiting period, I have enrolled in Krav Maga.  Krav Maga is Israeli Hand Combat fighting.  I'm learning this self defense in preparation for my mission and also to get in shape.  I'm exercising every day whether its Krav, Zumba, Country swing dancing, West Coast swing dancing, barefoot running, biking or the occasional Yoga.  I'm attending Mission Prep at Institute which gives me an opportunity to renew my enthusiasm for my mission and meet new friends.  I hoping I'll have a calling soon in my family ward.  I'm also trying to attend the temple at least twice a week.  Scripture reading, studying Preach My Gospel and reading other Gospel related books are strengthening my testimony.  I have time to sleep, read, organize, write in my journal, be with my family and friends and do the things I love.  I'm learning more about my strengths and weaknesses and what I will need to work on in order to be an effective missionary.    Even though I'm not employed right now, I feel confident that this is what I am supposed to be doing during this period of my life.

It's been hard to see these blessings instead of the fears and anxieties of my life right now.  But trusting that the Lord has a plan and seeing the blessings that have come from following it, has made this whole journey a lot easier.